Thursday 3rd June 2004

Didn't think things could get worse after yesterday, but they did.

I was snapped at last night and told that He'd better not speak to me because he was in a bad mood, and today he completely shunned me.  As far as I know, I haven't done anything wrong, but he's not talking to me and it is tearing me apart.  Especially when I am being told that he is talking to others.  So it has to be me, right?

All I have ever done is love him with all my heart and soul, and I have been completely open with him, maybe that is where I went wrong.  He told me only days ago, that he misses me, and that he has such feelings for me that it's driving him nuts, my heart melted and I have never felt so loved as I did them, so what happened?  What did I do in those few hours after we were last together, I don't understand.

I love him so much he is my little darling, I just hate thinking of him being so upset and not being able to do anything about it.  I hope my friend is right and he will be ok again real soon, I am not doing to well with people being upset with me at the moment.  It's looking like I will be thrown out soon, not that anyone cares right now, they have their own shit to deal with. 

Babe if you see this you know I love you, so please tell me what's going on.  I can't believe you mean for me to be hurting like this.